hm...can't believe i'm writing in this stuff...haha i know i know angelo...i said i wouldn't...but 've been doin some thinkin...haha so i juss gotta write my thoughts down...buuuuttt before i do that...i guess i'll update on what i've been up to. my memory sucks so i don't remember what's happened too far back.....um..but i do remember goin to eagle rock to visit my grandaddy...it was his birthday. i saw my david oppa, frances oppa and andrew oppa...that was pretty koo...saw other relatives too...and me, jeffrey, david and my grandad went to visit my grandmama at her hospital...dang..that was one of the most depressing things that i had ever experienced...ugh don't wana think bout that...but it was cute when we were leaving to go see her cuz you could tell my grandad was all exciting...all smiley and stuff. heehee. and...yesterday? day before...? i dunno but a couple of days ago or so me and my friend went to our usual getaway and went to the getty museum...haha that was pretty koo...um...what else...? my friend who was in peru came back! i was all smiley when he called...haha...and.......yea....big plans for the rest of summer. woo hoo! but anyways...yea...i was talkin to some people and stuff and wow....it's funny how people lie like CRAZY! gee whiz...and it sucks when others don't realize they're completely surrounded by lies...and another thing...this whole thing about the past is the past...i've discovered...that that's only true to a certain extent...no matter what happens..the past catches up with you and some people always revert back to the way they use to be...some people juss never change

hM...i can't hear my song....can anyone else?

wow...skool's already almost here...so depressing. ugh...well hopefully i can get all my stuff accomplished...skool wise and summer wise...cuz i had a lot of things planned out to do...dodgers game..disneyland..beach..camping...etc...but we'll see how those plans go. Today...went to valencia...it was koo....wow...drove around ALL day...but it was still aiite cuz at least i was outta palmdale..man...the things here! Goodness...well had to drop of jeffrey this morning at wayne's house and had to pick him up too....WOW...it was CHILLY up in there...goodness...dunno why he was glarin at me...haha but whatever...if he's gonna be like that...i ain't lettin anything bring me down this summer! so don't care if people are hatin on me...even though i see no reason why anyone should be...and omg...THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU so so so much Randy! I owe you big time. love you so much! thnx a ton! yea..and tomorrow's my grandaddy's birthday so we're gonna spend the day with him. so yup yup...hope y'all summer's goin good!

hM...not gonna say much except that imma probably stay away from everyone for a while...no more phone, xanga, AIM, etc. Maybe now i can actually relax and have a good summer cuz as much fun as i've been havin durin this summer the other half the time...my summer has been BOO BOO...so don't call unless i'm in any way suppose to be expectin your call...and y'all know who you are.

um.....yea...yesterday or this mornin..haha whatever you wanna call it...my friend left for south america...um...yea..i dunno why but i kinda felt sad. Kinda retarded considering we haven't even really talked that much lately. But yea...guess i won't be seein him for a while.  i dunno why i miss him...haha. But yea...you know..sometimes life is wierd...actually it's always wierd...haha but you know....gotta keep living it

hM...should i keep the song or not..?